when did i start liking van morrison?

i guess i have changed a little. there are two things i want to remember right now, one, i want to contact my family more often, instead of talking about about little things, i can talk about the big things, the stuff i hope i started conveying through this site.

it looks like unemployment is a sure thing for 26 weeks, 6058 dollars. that's 6 months and i think a pretty reasonable half year's salary for going to school. i feel really proud, this is what i wanted, and now i have it. if i get some extra help from the emergency housing fund and possibly food stamps. i might be able to live well during this trial. 19 credits are more than i have taken before, i need a good grade, i need to prove to myself that i will put in the time needed to score well on tests as well as get out of each class everything that i want. this is a very big mishmash of classes, spanish, astronomy, english, film, math, and history. i don't expect to like them all, but i need to do well.

the second thing is, i need to worry about becoming friends with girls, i have a feeling that i'm leaving intimacy out of a relationship right now, and that is true, but, should i try to add the kind of intimacy i'm thinking of? probably not. what are some other kinds that i can add instead? honesty? openness? those are intimate on a psychological order instead of physical. physical intimacy is really nice, but it doesn't add much to anyone else's life. i'm doing some growing here, i should be careful about how much i focus on my pleasures right now. i'm smoking cigarettes and i can already see problems in the way i think about them and how i use them.